Post by Natalie White on Sept 13, 2015 14:20:10 GMT
Well, congratulations to all of you guys. You definitely played the game very well to get where you are, and I commend you on that. However, you all had some pretty glaring flaws in your journey here. Despite that, I truly believe that 2 of you sitting here played the best strategic game, and I'm sure we can all guess which two of you that is. Before I go any further, Mike, I will not be voting for you. You are a nice guy, and there was a portion in the middle of the game where we talked quite a bit, but you disappeared entirely for large portions of the late game. Unfortunately, out of respect for the time and effort most of us put into the game, I just don't feel it's fair for you to win. Hopefully there are no hard feelings, had you of put more effort in, my jaded feelings could have easily persuaded me to vote for you. But anyway, let's move on to the people who have a chance at my vote.
Andrea, let's start this off with another apology. I sent you a private one, but I still do feel sorry for what I said to you. I don't know your family, and I don't know you on a very personal level. I was upset about getting vote off (which those feelings run much deeper than losing an online game, but we will get to that with Rodney), and wanted to make one last jab at you because you were one of the biggest reasons I got voted off. It wasn't right and if you want to hate me, I completely understand, even though I hope you don't. But, let's switch to your game play. I am not as impressed as the other jurors are by your use of powers or immunity wins. I don't consider guessing passwords or winning things really that impressive. You used them to bully certain people into going along with your plans, but I don't really admire that either.
However, the one thing I DO admire you for is something I doubt any other juror will notice, and that is your loyalty. Certainly not your loyalty to everyone, you have burned quite a few bridges, but your loyalty to Rodney is commendable. I had the same loyalty to him, and I know how difficult it is to have people trash talk him to you, only to defend his actions. During my last round in the game, you also refused to rat out Rodney to me. You could have easily done that and poisoned me against him to secure my jury vote, but you didn't. You took all the bullets for him, and that could quite possibly be the human side of you I needed to see in order for me to vote for you. Now, it's quite possible that you did that because you figured you didn't have a shot at my vote, but I don't think that's the case.
My question to you is this. If you had known Rodney was as big of a threat to win as he is, would you have still taken him to the end with you?
Now, to Rodney. What you did to me really does upset me. With the Erik blindside, I was left in the dark and it really opened up some scars I had with trust issues. I do not play these games often, and when I do, I am always out early, before I have the chance to build bonds with people. That wasn't the case with you. We had an alliance from the start and I gained so much trust in you. Now, obviously this bond wasn't mutual since you had such strong deals with every single person in the game, hence the reason people feel personally hurt by you. But as embarrassing as it to me, you were my #1 ally since the start of the game and it really sucks that it wasn't mutual. But my embarrassment aside, I don't really fault myself with that. You're the type of person who builds bonds with people really easily. I created some bonds as well, but they were different bonds, where the people didn't feel personally hurt by me voting them off. I thought our bond was closer than it was, because you perhaps give more into this than anyone else in the game, which is maybe something you should think about.
When you lied to me, it really brought those trust issues into the foreground and I opened up to you about it. You could have easily of just told me, "I'm sorry Natalie, I won't lie to you again." Instead, you made a spectacle out of it. The little issue that I had, you turned into a massive ordeal, promising me that you would NEVER let anything happen to me, how sorry you were for me, and how horrible you felt about yourself for doing that to you. You made it into this gigantic firework show, that it made me gain even more trust in you. It made me feel like you actually cared about my feelings, and that you actually did consider me as a friend. Your actions took a much deeper affect than just this game.
I may be a bitch at times, I may say hurtful things, but you used something personal against me. You purposely tried to gain all my trust back, to make me feel this false sense of security. It was not only a bad game move, since you knew I would always be on your side, before any of this happened I flat out told you I was still with you, but it was a really disgusting thing to do to someone on a personal level.
You could have easily had my vote. I would have still been upset with you, but ALL you had to do was tell me I was going that round. I had no power, I had absolutely no way to save myself, and instead you lied to me over and over throughout the day. You sat there and talked to me about my real life, the first time I had felt comfortable opening up to someone in this game about things like that, and just continued to lie to my face. I just don't understand why you did that. If you lie to me in this thread, you won't be getting my vote, so this is your chance to secure it by answering my question honestly. Keep in mind that I WANT to vote for you. Whether you hate me or not for what I said to Andrea (which is our business that I tried to handle), I was a good friend and ally to you, you do not have any sincere reason to dislike me.
You knew about the double vote, you knew about it's power, Andrea strong armed you into doing it. But why did you lie to me into feeling safe and getting my hopes up that I could actually make finals? What did you gain from that?
And a final question to all. I'd like you to rank the jurors based on who you feel played the game from best, to worst. You can put a reasoning if you want, but I suppose that's not needed.
Best of luck guys, I'm not going to say "no hard feelings" because, to be honest, my feelings are still a little hurt, but I'm a grown up. I can learn to build a bridge, get over it, and eventually not care about it anymore.
Andrea, let's start this off with another apology. I sent you a private one, but I still do feel sorry for what I said to you. I don't know your family, and I don't know you on a very personal level. I was upset about getting vote off (which those feelings run much deeper than losing an online game, but we will get to that with Rodney), and wanted to make one last jab at you because you were one of the biggest reasons I got voted off. It wasn't right and if you want to hate me, I completely understand, even though I hope you don't. But, let's switch to your game play. I am not as impressed as the other jurors are by your use of powers or immunity wins. I don't consider guessing passwords or winning things really that impressive. You used them to bully certain people into going along with your plans, but I don't really admire that either.
However, the one thing I DO admire you for is something I doubt any other juror will notice, and that is your loyalty. Certainly not your loyalty to everyone, you have burned quite a few bridges, but your loyalty to Rodney is commendable. I had the same loyalty to him, and I know how difficult it is to have people trash talk him to you, only to defend his actions. During my last round in the game, you also refused to rat out Rodney to me. You could have easily done that and poisoned me against him to secure my jury vote, but you didn't. You took all the bullets for him, and that could quite possibly be the human side of you I needed to see in order for me to vote for you. Now, it's quite possible that you did that because you figured you didn't have a shot at my vote, but I don't think that's the case.
My question to you is this. If you had known Rodney was as big of a threat to win as he is, would you have still taken him to the end with you?
Now, to Rodney. What you did to me really does upset me. With the Erik blindside, I was left in the dark and it really opened up some scars I had with trust issues. I do not play these games often, and when I do, I am always out early, before I have the chance to build bonds with people. That wasn't the case with you. We had an alliance from the start and I gained so much trust in you. Now, obviously this bond wasn't mutual since you had such strong deals with every single person in the game, hence the reason people feel personally hurt by you. But as embarrassing as it to me, you were my #1 ally since the start of the game and it really sucks that it wasn't mutual. But my embarrassment aside, I don't really fault myself with that. You're the type of person who builds bonds with people really easily. I created some bonds as well, but they were different bonds, where the people didn't feel personally hurt by me voting them off. I thought our bond was closer than it was, because you perhaps give more into this than anyone else in the game, which is maybe something you should think about.
When you lied to me, it really brought those trust issues into the foreground and I opened up to you about it. You could have easily of just told me, "I'm sorry Natalie, I won't lie to you again." Instead, you made a spectacle out of it. The little issue that I had, you turned into a massive ordeal, promising me that you would NEVER let anything happen to me, how sorry you were for me, and how horrible you felt about yourself for doing that to you. You made it into this gigantic firework show, that it made me gain even more trust in you. It made me feel like you actually cared about my feelings, and that you actually did consider me as a friend. Your actions took a much deeper affect than just this game.
I may be a bitch at times, I may say hurtful things, but you used something personal against me. You purposely tried to gain all my trust back, to make me feel this false sense of security. It was not only a bad game move, since you knew I would always be on your side, before any of this happened I flat out told you I was still with you, but it was a really disgusting thing to do to someone on a personal level.
You could have easily had my vote. I would have still been upset with you, but ALL you had to do was tell me I was going that round. I had no power, I had absolutely no way to save myself, and instead you lied to me over and over throughout the day. You sat there and talked to me about my real life, the first time I had felt comfortable opening up to someone in this game about things like that, and just continued to lie to my face. I just don't understand why you did that. If you lie to me in this thread, you won't be getting my vote, so this is your chance to secure it by answering my question honestly. Keep in mind that I WANT to vote for you. Whether you hate me or not for what I said to Andrea (which is our business that I tried to handle), I was a good friend and ally to you, you do not have any sincere reason to dislike me.
You knew about the double vote, you knew about it's power, Andrea strong armed you into doing it. But why did you lie to me into feeling safe and getting my hopes up that I could actually make finals? What did you gain from that?
And a final question to all. I'd like you to rank the jurors based on who you feel played the game from best, to worst. You can put a reasoning if you want, but I suppose that's not needed.
Best of luck guys, I'm not going to say "no hard feelings" because, to be honest, my feelings are still a little hurt, but I'm a grown up. I can learn to build a bridge, get over it, and eventually not care about it anymore.
